confessions of a tall awkward teen

MY (TECHNICALLY) FIRST DAY

well… i just finished my first day at work and it was…. long. All we did was sit in the break room and sign papers and talk about the policies and stuff. I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed with all the information but I hope to adjust soon.

but for now i’m scared for the future.


goodnight.

I AM EMPLOYED

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OLD NAVY OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG YES OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG MONEY

that awkward moment when you are attracted to an actor that resembles a family friend…. oh god.


#manish dayal

MY PERFECT GUY

i feel like i’ve already done this before but here it is (because i’m feeling bored and pretty depressed about life right now)

PHYSICALITY:

  • height: 5”10’ and beyond
  • weight: i don’t really care as long as they aren’t like really fat
  • skin colour: brown, white, it doesn’t really matter to me. Except for black. I DON’T KNOW. Even though i’m black, i feel like black guys are really ghetto and really disrespectful to women. If i meet a black guy that is sweet and actually respects me then i’ll change my mind.
  • nationality: to be honest i would prefer an indian guy but i mean at this point there’s not point in being picky. Just whoever comes around. If they happen to be indian then that’s a bonus
  • hair colour: doesn’t matter (but not ginger? idk i can’t imagine myself with a ginger guy…or a blond for that matter)
  • eye colour: honestly don’t care
  • penis size: OH GOD I DON’T EVEN WANT TO KNOW OR CARE. THAT IS DISGUSTING. (i’m such a child i know)
  • beard or no beard: whatever looks better is fine with me
  • muscular or nah: I HATE LIKE SUPER MUSCULAR CHUNKING GUYS (e.g. Devin on BB16, Caleb is the one exception because he is sexy and is a really sweet guy). I like guys that are fit and have a bit of muscle but not overboard (e.g. Cody on BB16)
  • hair or no hair: I think i would prefer no hair like on the body, i think it just looks cleaner and sexier…tehe
  • extras: nice smile, nice butt, soft hands and skin

PERSONALITY:

  • has to be hilarious, smart (but not scientist smart), sweet, respectful, honest, loves to cook, has to love my jokes, 

MISC:

  • good sense of style

I dont get why its important to know if there were U.S. citizens on the Malaysian plane that crashed today. Almost 300 people died no matter what. They all lost their lives. People are people no matter where they lived. I just don’t get it.

post concert depression

i went to the onerepublic concert on june 22 and i still miss it. It was my first concert so understandably i would never forget it but still i miss it so much!

i’m really excited for the one direction concert tho in a couple weeks! i’m just really nervous about all of the screaming fans in stadium. I’m afraid i’m gonna go deaf loool :/

POST NYC

so i came back from nyc earlier today and i thought i would write a blog post about what the realities of my trip were vs. my expectations. HERE IT GOES:

NEW YORK EXPECTATIONS

  • visit family: YES. I got to see my cousins. Some i had already met and hadn’t seen in 5-10 years and others i just met either for the first time face to face (cause we knew each other on facebook) or the first time EVER. I got to catch up with my grandma who is amazing and hilarious and awesome and i love her so much!
  • go shopping: YES. on sunday me and my family went to manhattan and times square and did A BIT of shopping. I didn’t get to do much cause i was exhausted by the end, or i was taking pictures lol. But i did buy one shirt for the nintendo store that i love. And a onesie for my godson.
  • visit the empire state building: NO. i didn’t expect to go here and i was right but im not disappointed or anything.
  • take a ny cab: NO. because i learned that they are CRAZY EXPENSIVE. Instead we took the bus to the subway then took the subway down to manhattan. The bus was really ghetto but the subway was cool i liked that part.
  • visit manhattan and go see kleinfeld’s: YES/NO. unfortunately i did not get to see kleinfeld’s but hopefully next time! we were too exhausted to walk that far down cause we were near like 42nd and 44th street while the store was at 20th.
  • take a picture of the ny skyline: NO? i did not get pictures of the entire city but i did get times square and a bunch of other stuff
  • nice hotel in Queens: HELL NO. OUR HOTEL WAS HORRIBLE. IT SMELT WEIRD. OUR ROOM WAS IN THE BASEMENT. THE BEDS WERE TINY. THE BATHROOM WAS FALLING APART. THERE WAS NO BREAKFAST (BARELY) AND NO AMENITITIES (EXPECT FOR WIFI). JUST NO.
  • *side note* Queens is actually really ghetto as well because there were so many black people and they were all extremely annoying and gross and fat tbh. well except for my fam of course. I was literally watched by 30 black men in total for the span of our trip. It was disturbing.
  • go to Times Square (at night). NO but i’m ok with that :)
  • see fireworks: NO cause we had to go meet family and we were too busy to watch the fireworks. But we did hear it…for the ENTIRE WEEKEND. LITERALLY people were still lighting fireworks on July 5th and 6th…and still probably doing it now.

PRE NYC

so i’m 99% sure that i already mentioned that i’m going to New York tomorrow. I just wanted to write a blog post about my expectations of going to New York and then when i come back i will write the realities. So here it goes:

NEW YORK EXPECTATIONS

  • visit my cousins and grandmother and have a good time catching up
  • go shopping somewhere (idk what streets are best in new york)
  • visit the empire state building (MAYBE) (i already expect not to do this)
  • take a ny cab
  • visit manhattan and go see kleinfeld’s store (THE DREAM)
  • take a picture of the new york skyline
  • stay in a somewhat nice hotel in Queens
  • go to Times Square (hopefully at night!)
  • go see fireworks for 4th of July

hopefully all of these happen! See ya later! :)

FURTHER UPDATES BECAUSE I FORGOT SOME AND JUST REMEMBERED!

- my nephew loves me! (he was always obsessed with my oldest sister and me and my older sister were sad about it. But i saw him one weekend by myself and he came up to me, beged me to pick him up and hugged me, hung out while i tried to eat, and made me take him on numerous walks. I DIED AND CRIED TEARS OF JOY)

- as of august 10th i will officially become a GODMOTHER! i’m excited for an awesome title but nervous and scared to stand in front of all of those people but more than anything i am extremely honoured and privileged and amazed that i was even asked!

UPDATES ON MY LIFE!

- i have been a full time babysitter with my amazing adorable cousin for a month (with pay!), but sadly (or nah) its ending in two days

- i went bowling with the family friend that i am basically in love with and it was aaaamaaazingly embarassing because at first i was terrible but then i beat him and i was happy plus embarassed myself a numerous amount of times after that but its all good.

- *side note* my family friend’s sister who is also one of my best friends left to go to thunder bay for a month and idk if i’m really that sad about it. Only because when she goes half way across the world i die but now i know she’s still in ontario everything is fine so i’m reassured :)

- i’m heading to new york this fourth of july weekend (even tho i’m not america) to visit family and shop!

- i’m pretty sure i’m missing a bunch of things but i can’t think of anything else right now…